Last night at Oasis we did “Lead Me to the Cross.” I’ve listened to and sung the song (even led it) dozens of times now, but last night I prayed for a revelation of the cross again – and I got it.
It’s so easy to get caught up in leadership development,”maturity,” and all those other words we use in the modern church and completely lose sight of a great big word – repentance. Last night I asked God to show me a picture of who I was in reference to the cross. The image that came up in my head was the brutality of the cross and Jesus beckoning me to come close – I was 75 ft away from him, nicely dressed, very clean, sad that He was on the cross, but I was not broken for what I was seeing. I even saw that twinge in my eye when he beckoned me because I was afraid to get His blood on me – my nice clean shirt.
That’s how I’ve treated it recently – completely lost sight of the cross, loss perspective on my need for repentance – remembering that it’s easy to say “he died on the cross for me” but it’s a lot uglier to realize your hand was on the hammer, and that you MUST have the blood cover you.
Here’s the biggest thought I had – if I didn’t get bloody in the process of “repentance,” I missed the redemption…
Sin isn’t just “bad” that we shouldn’t do any more, it’s bloody and requires repentance. We’re not on a journey of personal development, we’re on a journey with the king, grieving Him, loving Him, knowing Him….